Wala to.

Bukas gigising ako ng wala ng bubungad na "Good morning honey, I love you" message sakin.

Kakain ako ng tanghalian ng walang nagsasabing "Damihan mo ha"

Uuwi ako ng bahay ng walang magpapaalalag "Mag Ingat ka sa pagtawid ha"

Bukas, ako nalang mag isa,

Wala na kong katext hanggang madaling araw, wala na kong kasamang magsimba pag Linggo. Wala na kong pupuntahan tuwing Martes. Wala na kong kukulitin kapag ayaw ko gumawa ng homeworks. Wala na kong kasamang magplaplano ng pupuntahan para sa mga susunod na buwan. Wala ng susundo sakin. Wala ng bibilan ako ng gamot pag nagkakasakit ako. Wala na kong aawayin. Wala na kong kapalitan ng I Love You at I Miss You. Wala na akong dapat abangang anniversary sa October 19 :(

Wala nang magsasabi saking tumahan na ko, wala na kong kasama manood ng sine, wala na kong kajamming sa food trip, wala na kong kahati sa panyo, wala ng hahawak ng kamay ko. 

T_________________________________________________________T

Blah Bleh Blih Bobo.

Please don't expect me to always be good, kind, and loving. There are times when I will be cold, thoughtless, and hard to understand.

I named my blog : eccedenteciast, or in simpler terms it means someone who can fake smiles. I do good at that, Im a professional eccedenteciast. Maybe thats the reason why whenever I couldnt handle it anymore I am still forced to smile in front of other people, making the pain much worse that it should just had. I have attitude problems, I think. Who no Earth will hide her feelings every friggin time? 

Me.

I wish i was born a completely different person, a different girl, I can be the richest girl, or the poorest but with the happiest family, or a lesbiaan, or I could have been born as a flower or as the Eiffel tower. Nah, scratch this paragraph, Im going crazy.

Truth is, I had completely imprisoned myself to a life I no longer had. A life well planned, well organized, well sustained and all that shit. I wish and wish and wish that I could get that old life back.

Back when Mom and Dad was still the kinkiest, cheesiest, sweetest couple on Earth, back when they wouldn't argue everyday, back when we;d go shopping every sunday, we'd go out for dinner, we'd travel to Pampanga, Bulacan, ilocoa, Cagayan, Bukidnon, Palawan and even Macau. I want to bring back that shitful family I had before, I want and I need but it's useless, as Taylor Swift goes "We are never ever ever getting back together"

I wanna bring  back the days when I would not worry on every single thing in life. I want to be happy. Genuine happy again,

After graduation, I really am planning so much for myself. I wanted to reinvent my life, be a total transformed "me". I want to reach my dreams and attain my goals and comply with all my responsibilities too.

SCRATCH EVERYTHING I HAD WRITTEN. I really am going crazy.

I just want this to be short, Maybe I should just wait until I graduated from college and have all the time in the world to do what I needed to do to achieve my desirable life.

Im getting crazy.

Nonsense

xoxo

Passion

I just recently created another blog in tumblr and named it :Whatdaisywears.

Its a different blog than this one I got here in blogger., I am having fun with it because I love fashion and in there I can selflessly, freely talk about anything there is in fashion.

http://whatdaisywears.tumblr.com/ please follow :)

You told me you love me, So why did you go away? :)

I never thought I'd see him again. Ever.

I find it completely awkward to walk pass by someone whom for once had been your world, or so you thought.  That minute you meet the eyes of each other will be the exact time you'll probably remember everything you two had before. It's awkward. Very awkward.

I was walking hand in hand with my boyfriend and happily window shopping at the mall. Damn that was a very hot afternoon. Out of the thousands of faces I passed by the mall, I saw someone familiar, someone I knew very well, someone I kinda memorize everything about, someone I promised the whole world to, someone who had became a part of me. Ladies and gentlemen, my ex boyfriend.

He smiled and I smiled back. End of story.

I was surprised on the way I reacted. (Cause I thought I was supposed to cry or something). It has been 6 years? or maybe 5? I cant seem to remember, Maybe after all these years I really didn't care at all.

I have to admit that it took me several minutes to forget his face, but I cant seem to remember it now unlike years ago when I even memorize the shape of his lips.

So I had proven myself wrong. Its not awkward, I dont know for some. But it really is not the way I thought it would be.

Wala lang, I was just super amazed :)

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meilleurs amis

"GUSTO NIYO BANG GRUMADUATE NG MAY SAMAAN TAYO NG LOOB?"

Bungad ko para lang maumpisahan ang mahabang usapan, paliwanagan, opinion, diskusyon at kung ano pang dapat pag usapan nung hapong 'yon sa taas ng walls sa Intramuros.

Alam na kapag naggrupo kameng anim, ng SERYOSO, ibig sabihin may dapat kaming pag usapan. Kami kasi yung barkadang palaging joker sa classroom. Kaya naman napakabihira samin na mag usap usap ng dibdiban.

Naalala ko nung huli namen tong ginawa. Naiyak pa yung isa. sabagay iyakin talaga sya sa twing naggaganito kameng barkada. Kanina nga eh, naiyak din siya.

Yung usapan namin ngayon, SERYOSO.
Kahit hindi kasi sabihin nung lima, ramdam ko na may nasaktan, may hindi pa din nakakamove on, may kinikimkim lang, may gustong sabihin, may nangulangot.

Pero ano bang masasabi ko?

Ayoko lang mawala tong mga to sa buhay ko. :"))

20 REASONS WHY I LOVE BIGSIX


1. They accepted me. Kahit minsan hindi din kanais nais ang ugali ko, anjan pa din sila.
2. They love me. Mula sa pagflood sakin ng texts na late na ko hanggang sa pagpapakopya kapag may exams. naasahan ko sila.
3. With them, I can be in my most craziest. Walang hiyaan dahil walanghiya kaming anim :P
4. I am on my happiest whenever I am with them.  Oo totoo to, kahit korni :P
5. Open forums. Hindi ko alam pano to nagsimula pero automatic na kapag nagkaproblema, may open forum na kasunod
6. Overnights to remember. Kahit madalas na wala si Dan, yung every convo kapag nag oovernight kame = memorable.
7. Panget si Patty. Palagay ko hindi magiging super saya ng barkadang to kundi ganun ang itsura ni Pat. hahaha! :))))
8. Weirdo si Dan. Monggi si Dan. Sped si Dan. Yes, sorry sa mga nagkakagusto sa kanya, may saltik siya sa totoo lang. (Sorry pat! :P)
9. Si bea, weirdo din... ang taste. hahaha! No further explanation LOL
10. Si Klinton, bakla. Kung di siguro naging bading si ton, hindi rin siguro ganun kasaya :D
11. Si Yao Ming ay isang piranha. No further explanations.
12. Pinakamaganda si Dai. Period. :))
13. Tumagal kame ng 4 years, pero hindi kami naging B.I. sa bawat isa. Walang yosi, walang alak :) 
14. Ang mahal ng isa, susuriin muna ng lima :) Ganun kame kahigpit sa mga pumapasok sa circle namen bwahahaha XD
15. Parang magsyota, may future din kameng plinaplano magbabarkada. Magkikita kita kame sa Glorietta, kakain sa aveneto. Same time, same place :)
16. Dahil iiyak ako sa graduation. Sa totoo lang kapag naiisip ko naluluha na ko :P
17. Sinusuportahan namin ang bawat isa. Alam niyo yan?  kahit ilang bese kameng natalo ni ton, nakikiiyak kayo samin, OA kayo. hahahaha! :)
18. Mahal namin si tita Sonia. Siya ang ultimate nanay ng bigsix. (Penge pong macaroni para sa exposure sa blog ko)
19. Tagaytay, Batangas, Puerto, Hundred Island... Marami pa tayo pupuntahan together :)
20. Bestfriends ko kayo. :)

Madami pa akong reasons na gustong ilagay kaso masyado pang maaga para magdrama. :)

Not your ordinary slambook.

I am a very weird girl sometimes.

The name is Daisy, I am 18. I live in a bungalow somewhere in Manila. Been studying for eternity and yes, come 8 months I will proudly call myself "a fresh graduate". I'm taking up Broadcasting? The reason? It's because I am talkative. I spill secrets, I put the fire in heated arguements, I speak cold words for the cold hearts. I reminisce. I... never... forget...

when one of my bestest friends die. Almost 2 years ago to be exact, I cant barely imagine how our lives would be without him. Being in a barkada that is composed of guys breaks my heart when I heard their silent mournings when Khay died. Khay was one of the brothers I'll never forget. I had a hard time letting go of him actually. I wrote down letters everyday or every week at least to keep him updated on what's going on in my life. I kept them till it almost reached a point where it occupies a drawer in my closet. Then I decided to visit him, mourn along with prayers then burned the letters hoping that my words will reach him, or God, or whoever their messenger up there is.

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I am a very weird girl sometimes.

The name is Daisy, I am 18. I live in a bungalow somewhere in Manila. Been studying for eternity and yes, come 8 months I will proudly call myself "a fresh graduate". I'm taking up Broadcasting? The reason? It's because I am talkative. I spill secrets, I put the fire in heated arguements, I speak cold words for the cold hearts. I reminisce. I...cry...a...lot.

I must admit that i am really a cry-baby. I cry for even the simplest dramatic scene in a telenovela, I cry upon watching public service programs, I cry when my dogs are sick, I cry when I am really pissed, I cry upon hearing the saddest love songs, I cry when someone I love leaves. I cry a lot. It's an avenue for me to release all my emotions. But it's a secret. It's literally the other side of me. 

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I am a very weird girl sometimes.

The name is Daisy, I am 18. I live in a bungalow somewhere in Manila. Been studying for eternity and yes, come 8 months I will proudly call myself "a fresh graduate". I'm taking up Broadcasting? The reason? It's because I am talkative. I spill secrets, I put the fire in heated arguements, I speak cold words for the cold hearts. I reminisce. I...love..more...than...myself.

When we found out that my lola's sickness is indeed dangerous, financially heavy and a burden to keep, the family has nothing to do but to accept the fact that we all have to sacrifice. Come dialysis days of lola, she sometimes lacks blood so rest assured that she needs replacement for all the blood that is lost. Dad, kuya. mom, tita, tito, cousins and vice versa as long as they are in the same blood type as lola donates neccesary amount of blood needed all for lola. (I'm about to burst into tears nanaman!)

It's actually a take it or leave it decision for the family. Because the only way lola can survive longer is through a kidney transplant.

One time I asked lola if she wanted to be cured. she said yes but she doesnt want a transplant because according to her she knows that no one will offer her kidneys for free.

"Ahm, gusto mo lan, ako nalang magbigay ng kidney ko?" I said.

She cried. she said as long as she wants to, she cannot do it. She loves me and she wants me to have a good life, she dont want my kidney. And then I told her I'm serious. I told her if it will cure her fast I am very much willing to do it. She said "no, apo God Bless You"

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I am a very weird girl sometimes.

The name is Daisy, I am 18. I live in a bungalow somewhere in Manila. Been studying for eternity and yes, come 8 months I will proudly call myself "a fresh graduate". I'm taking up Broadcasting? The reason? It's because I am talkative. I spill secrets, I put the fire in heated arguements, I speak cold words for the cold hearts. I reminisce. I... blog.

Aside from crying, i find writing very very helpful in stress management. I compose my thought, my stories, my everything when blogging. I may be weird, but that makes me stand out from everyone ;)

Isang walang kwentang entry

Wala akong ibang gustong gawin kundi umiyak, wag umimik, at kumain ng ice cream.

Napaisip ako, sobrang weirdo ko pala. Kahit anong ingay ko, kapag tinoyo ako ayokong kumakausap ng kahit na sino. Naiinis ako sa bawat tao. Hindi ko maexplain, parang tanga lang kasi yung ganung ugali ko.

Umuwi ako kagabi na hindi nakakaipag usap sa kahit na sino. Umupo sa sahig ng kwarto at hinayaang umagos ang luha na sumira sa eyeliner ko. oo ganun kadrama yung eksena. Gustong gusto kong umiiyak. dun ko lang nalalabas lahat ng nararamdaman ko. ang sarap ng pakiramdam pagkatapos ng iyak, parang relieved kahit papano.

Kelan ba ko huling umiyak bukod so kagabi? Ah... nung isang linggo lang halos. nung buryong buryo ako sa nangyayari. Gusto ko na talaga umayaw. Masyado na rin kasi akong napupuno. Pero sabi nila Think positive. Kapag naiisip ko yung positive, mas mahirap mag let go.

Kelan ba ko huling umiyak ng grabe bukod sa kagabi? Ah... nung isang buwan yata. Nung lumayas yung daddy ko sa bahay. Iyak ng inis, ng acceptance at ng galit yun. Iniwan niya kame eh, tangina. All these time, kala ko masaya family namen. Akala ko lang pala. Parang gusto ko nun manabunot ng babae na umagaw ng masayang family. Parang gusto ko siya iuntog sa bawat poste ng post office.

Kelan ba ko huling umiyak ng grabe bukod sa kagabi pero tears of joy? Ah... nung nakaraang taon. Debut ko yun. Hindi ako nagparty. Ayoko. Pumunta ko sa isang home for the aged. Pinakain ko yung mga lolo't lola. Binigyan sila ng konting regalo, nakipagkwentuha, at madami akong natutunan. Naiyak ako nun kasi inabutan ako ng lolo ng rosary sabi niya gabayan daw sana ako nun lagi.

Lagi ko ngang dala yun. Kahit san ako pumunta hindi ko iniiwan. Feeling ko kasi safe ako kapag dala ko yun.

Kelan ba ko umiyak ng grabe? Kagabi yun. Ang sakit kasi. Sobra.