there is so much love for the word. It's like a hidden meaning to my boring name. It's speaks a lot about me. It defines me. I am eccedenteciast.
I acted like I am in control of the things in my life. Acting so brave and so still. I'm such a drama queen. truth is, I bleed. I cry. I suffer and I lose hopes.
Theres a lot of things to put a smile on but I can't. I just cant.
As my facebook status goes: Please don't expect me to always be good, kind, and loving. There are times when I will be cold, thoughtless, and hard to understand.
There will always be point in life when you really need a break. A small shout out to the world that you are hurting. The wound hurts too much that you just wanna give up, I wanna give up. I wanna lose it. It's a tale it or leave it thing. It's my destiny.
Eccedenteciast means faking smiles. I fake smiles. i always do. It makes me feel strong. It makes me feel that I belong. My friends are not used to me being this shitful of dramatic. But sometimes I just cant contain the sadness.
